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DDD, ALIF, pain ongoing one year later... UGH

Started by scrublightning on 08/26/2011 10:39am

so, at the age of 30, I was diagnosed with degenerative disk disease... I used to be a surgical technologist and I injured my back on the job, during a post-op patient transfer (ironically enough, after performing a lumbar laminectomy). The hospital screwed me out of workers comp, my neurologist who fused L5/S1 last year just looked at my xrays and said I was "fine," and to return to work without restrictions. No one did a functional capacity exam. The thing is, I have chronic pain STILL. the time what lapsed between my initial injury and the date I had my fusion was 11 months, and during that time, I've suffered permanent nerve damage due to the ongoing inflammation and the fact that I was made to work beyond restrictions, when I HAD restrictions... after my surgery, I didn't get better quickly enough and was fired from my job.

I'm trying to get my disability back... hired a lawyer... I'm trying to get cash benefits from the welfare office, and I keep getting shuffled about from place to place... I am so frustrated, and I'm facing eviction now, on top of hurting all the time. it's so bad, I can hardly do housework... lifting wet clothes out of the washer and putting them in a dryer will knock me on my backside for HOURS. today I'm seeing a physiatrist. not really keen on this, as I've heard from a lot of different people that she's one of those, "it's all in your head" types. I'm freaking out right now. I have to take my eviction notice to the welfare office and hopefully get some help before my seven year-old boy and I are evicted from our apartment. I feel like I"ve been in a state of limbo for the last 2 years (the date of my injury was in November of '09)...

does anyone have any insights as to how to cope with the stress, depression, the stigma of chronic pain? my closest friends and my family are all telling me to get off my lazy ass and just get a job...I feel so lost and scared and frustrated and worried and at the end of my rope... I'm sick of the narcotics and this effing pain and the dead ends, the different doctors, the endless forms to fill out, the rejections, the hopelessness of it all. If I wasn't a momma, I'd blow my f*cking brains out.

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Hi scrublighning, I too am in the medical field and got hurt on the job by having a 465 patient fall on me, I too got screwed out of workers comp. I am experienced in ortho,u can visit my story under Rene. After suffering severly from chronic pain 24/7 and severe depression I was at the end of my rope ,and I too if it wasnt for my kids i was feeling the same way,But guess what I found a remedy to help after endless research and speaking with fello doctor collegues I found releif. To help u get through this please read my posting I hope it helps you.Dont give up, again I hope my suggestions help. RENE :)


Hi scrub lightning
As a fellow back sufferer I can understand where your coming from. I also got svrewed over workers comp, being forced back to work teaching ice skating with 2 fractured wrists and a messed up back. I had had back issues prior to the work related accident so comp put it done to that. 4 back surgeries.
I have finally after initially being denied been accepted On disability. It doesn't help with the pain but the financial stress is eased which in turn helps psychologically. If you are truly feel you cannot work, and only you can be the judge of that then seek help in getting disability and don't give up, they will deny you just because they can, so fight for what is your right. My pain is more manageable because I dont have to worry about how I am going to make ends meet when I cant work.

Good luck to you and don't give up hope, there is light at the end of the tunnel.


Rene, for some reason I'm unable to find your story on here. mind sharing a link I could just click please?


scrublightning very sorry to hear of your pain as well as your financial situation. Not to push it in your face I was injured at work and am lucky I have been taken care of very well by my workcomp. I do have an attorney.I did have to wait over 8 months for surgery, once I obtained an attorney workcomp changed there tune. Not sure what would have happened to me If I hadn't obtained an attorney. I had a l5-s1 fusion March 2011. Been the longest and hardest 6 months of my life. This surgery from my understanding from others is a long, hard recover, 12-18 months. I did have a fuctional capacity test and did not do well and can not return to work yet. Honestly I'm terrified to return to work. It caused my back issues and I still have a bulging disc in neck, as well as l4-l5 torn. It has been a long road back, been in physical therapy for 5 months and it has been difficult, but my PT is awesome. She has helped me so much and I don't know where I would be without her. I'm far from being healed and PT feels only half way there. With our types of injury it will always be a struggle but with proper stretches and exercise it will be bearable, but I think its a life sentence. My pain is definetely better than before surgery but is still hard and i have limitations and probably always will. I do feel for you wish there was more I could do to help. I'm always here if you ever would like to chat, take care, keep your chin up and don't give up, fight, fight!