Coping with depression
Brand new to site. Have to learn to navigate it. A year ago I had a lumbar fusion on L2,3,4,5. It was excruciating. Like a fool, I went back to my job as a special education teacher. I'm 61 and wanted to get one more year in before I retire. Well, I was breaking up a fight, got jumped and injured my neck. That resulted in a cervical fusion on C5 and 6. It also caused the lumbar section to weaken and I have to have that looked at now. I am three weeks out from the cervical surgery and have a lot of pain between my shoulder blades and can not turn my neck. My legs are so painful and sensitive all the way down the front. My balance is off and I am very weak. Can not start PT yet due to weakness. I am taking short walks with my cane. I know I have a lot to be thankful for, like very supportive family, but I feel my life has been taken from me. I am having to sue the school district as they claim I can't prove that I was hurt during this fight even though I documented everything. I was always very active, running and teaching yoga. I am looking at a lifetime of pain management. This was not how I wanted to retire. My weight has gone up even so I eat well. I am managing pain with vicodin and Cymbalta. Has anyone else felt guilt for being depressed? Thanks for letting me sound off.