Sad due to pain
I just turned 50 years old the other day. I have DDD.
I have been in pain from lumbar spinal problems over 7 years now.
I have had multiple surgeries including laminectomies and Fusions at L5/S1 and L4/S1. The last surgery was two years ago for a pars defect but I never fused according to the Xrays. I have been living on pain pills and trying to hide the pain from my Family but it is finally getting to the point where it is hard to keep doing everyday things like grocery shopping or housekeeping without holding my breath from the pain. I have been on Morphine and Percocet for over 5 years and neither help anymore. I have an excellent Neurosurgeon who suggests a revision fusion at L4 but I don't want to go thru anymore surgeries/recoveries. My son who is only 11 says he can see the pain in my eyes. I just wanted to know I wasn't alone and if anyone wants send me a response it woudl be appreciated. Happy New Year!