I am 32 years old. I had an auto accident in 2006, it completly changed my life. With in three months of my doctors putting me off work we lost our home. Things just can't get much worse. To top it off I have 5 sons. I have been diagnosed with, spinal stanois, scolious, degenertive Disc, Degenertive bone, arthritis, fibromyalgia, anxity,chornic pain syndrome, migraines, memory loss,my shouldar has been locked almost up to my left ear, the neck pain is unimaginable, and so much more I can't even keep up any more. I am always tired, can't do much without hurting myself. I have not been released to work since 2006. I did make an attempt on my own that resulted in a fall and more pain. I only lasted three weeks. I just had an appeal hearing august 31st. My second appeal. I honeslty hate living anymore. I only leave the house to go to the doctors or to run in the store quickly, always have to have someone with me as if I am a child. I used to love living, was so active. Heck I only mssed three days work after giving birth to my son. Of course the social security adminsstration think people with disabilities enjoy not working. In november, my uncle was on his death bed. I went to the hospital to say my goodbyes. Just the drive and movement went against me. As I walked down a couple stairs my back did it's locking magic. I couldn't move my leg to reach for the next step. Broke my elbow. Took 6 hours to rebuild it. A doctor told me my back locking is my bodys way of protecting itself.LOL you would thinkmy body would understand breaking bones isn't protection at all. My migraines make me pass out. I have to give myself injections to stop them. My husband left my sons and I cause he couldn't take being my caregiver anymore. My hands open and release things by themselves, Sometimes I completely lose my eyesight. usually only last a minute or so. I think the head trauma cause all these strange things. i never know when it is going to come on, sometimes I go months with those things happening. But everyday the pain is there, the lack of mobility. I am terriffied of being denied again. I already lost all control of my life. So many doctors, injections, medications. I really don't want ssi. I want my life back and all the years I have been robbed. i want to play with my sons. I can almost bet if they invented a time machine, everyone with these issues would take it over a disability check. At my hearing the judge asked the vocational expert if there was any jobs I can do with out walking more than 5minutes, lifting anything, sitting for more than 20minutes, not around the public, not around change in temps. The vocational expert said I can load a machine and press a button, there are 70,000jobs in our area. Never mind that all 22 meds I take a day say do not operate machinary, and am I supppose to crawl to this machine. Sure when I pass out from my migraine this machine will be nice and cuchy for my head to hit. The worst part is my last hearing before this appeal the vocational expert said I was unemployable and they still denied me. It is a shame when the system makes you realize you are worth more dead than alive for your children. Currently my children and I are packed in my parents small one bedroom house, with no income. This is a nightmare to say the least. Wish us luck. Hope everyone out there fighting this awful mess gets the help they need, deserve, and busted butts paying into.