Advice, For a college student
Heres my story,
I was 17, only 4 years ago. One night I got in another bad argument with my Dad and needed to leave the house to escape the abuse. I lost my footing and fell 2 stories trying to leave my home.
I broke my back and wrist, not sure exactly what lumbar but I had a spinal fusion what looks like to be 4 bolts and 2 bars. The scar goes from just below my shoulder blades down to above my tailbone.
I been taking pain killers (opana ER) for past few years, and been slowly coming off of them. I feel like Ive been losing my mind from the constant upper, mid, and lower back pain. I can no longer sleep, concentrate on anything other than the pain, or do any activities like surfing or running which I so dearly cherished before my accident.
I'm about to graduate with a Bachelor in Science in Psychology from UCF, and have lost all my long term memory it seems.. I feel like im going to lose it and kill myself sooner or later.
I don't believe in miracles, but is there anything one can do to make the pain go away without medication? My surgeon doesn't seem interested in removing the hardware, and just pushes me aside to pain management doctors. They have done numerous epidurals and burning of the nerves but none help. I am not myself when medicated, and seemed to have lost all hope of any dreams i once had growing up.